It was statistically impossible that weâd have a baby, but we felt like God had shown us that He was going to give us a baby
Weâd been married for about two years when we decided to start having kiddos, but after actively trying for about a yearâChad always says, âIt was a labor of love!ââwe sat down with a fertility specialist and found out we had a 1% chance of conceiving naturally.
It was statistically impossible that weâd have a baby, but we felt like God had shown us that He was going to give us a baby. We wrote that word down to stand on and remind each other of it and point each other back to His faithfulness.
Every month, I felt like God was saying, âThis is the month!â but I didnât see it happening. One month, after finding out we still werenât pregnant, I just remember us holding hands before meeting up with family because I just couldnât go inside. I couldnât put on a happy face. But Chad very much believes we donât worry until we have a reason to, and that steadiness was a big strength I could lean on. We stood with each other, and we grew in our intimacyâeven in the hard moments.

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We got some advice from friends whoâd experienced infertility to not discuss the results of the testsâbetween ourselves or with family or friends, and we followed that. We didnât want to focus on it because we didnât want anyone to give or feel blame. This wasnât âa you-and-Iâ thing. This was an âusâ thing. We decided to focus on God and trust in Him together. The reason didnât matterâwe believe God works in the impossible.Â
The reason didnât matterâwe believe God works in the impossible.Â
After we got our results, Monica was really upset. We were running errands, and I (Chad) said, âLetâs buy some baby shoes in faith that one day, a little one will fill them.â
We texted our friends and family that we were believing for a baby and to pray for us for 30 days, that God would turn our 1% chance into a miracle, gave some scriptures, and asked if they heard anything to share it.Â
The words we received were amazing: God leaves the 99 for the one. A postcard that said âBaby 2020â from Monicaâs mom. Monica heard â2020â from God. In late December, she was driving home and saw the top and bottom of a rainbow, but the middle was missing, and she felt like God was saying, âYou canât see it, but thereâs a middle connecting the two. You will be a mom.â Sometime between Christmas and New Yearâs, I had a conscious feeling of What if this is the last time this is just the two of us?
It was around that time that Grace was conceived. And the moment when we found out was so sweet, but a few weeks later, I (Monica) started bleeding pretty heavily. I remember being so panicked. Chad helped me calm down, and that night, my mom said, âYouâve got to decide right now what youâre going to believe about God. No matter which way this goes, you canât leave this believing a lie about Him.âÂ

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The next day, Chad wrapped up the baby shoes weâd bought in faith and gave them to me as a reminder of Godâs faithfulness. After that, the pregnancy was pretty smooth and amazing.Â
Just watching what God did up to her birth, we feel like Graceâs life carries this breakthrough for miracles. Quite a few people told us that when they were praying for her, they hadnât prayed in a long time. We did a drive-thru baby shower during the pandemic where we prayed for people, and somebody even got baptized in the pool in the backyard!
Just watching what God did up to her birth, we feel like Graceâs life carries this breakthrough for miracles